I Am Haunted By…

Results from the “I Am Haunted By…” questionnaire have been compiled, dear strangers. Thanks to everyone who answered.

Of the NIGHT VOICES haunting people:

46% were male voices
31% were unknown
23% were female voices

Of the EROTIC FATA MORGANA haunting people:

86% were melancholic
14% were violent

Of the GHOSTS haunting people:

75% were real
25% were delusional

Of the PREOCCUPATION WITH THE DREAMLIKE QUALITY OF LIFE:

56% considered it positive
44% considered it negative

Of the IRREPARABLE MISTAKES:

52% learned from their mistakes
48% did not

By a broad margin, the most common COLOR OF ONE’S CHILDHOOD TRAUMA was red. Other colors included indigo, hunter green, orange, cobalt blue, and, in one case, a spectrum.

We received many answers to the PECULIAR URGES AND EMOTIONS we’re unwilling to admit. Here are some of the answers:

“I want to watch people cry at a funeral.”

“I am afraid everyone will leave me.”

“She is the love of my life. I am not the love of hers.”

“The feeling when you look into the mirror and wonder am I even real”

“Paralyzing nostalgia”

“Animalistic desires to eat, kill, fuck”

“Worthlessness”

“Intrusive thoughts”

“I don’t particularly want to be part of this world, but have so many loved ones that feel the same way I feel, like we’re all here to keep the others from leaving, too.”

“Suicide”

IMPORTANT NOTE: We’re a group who often explores dark and painful subject matter. We’re honored you’ve shared these answers with us. If any of you are in serious need of help, we are not qualified in that regard. But help exists, and we encourage you to seek it from friends, loved ones, or compassionate professionals. Please take care of yourselves. We like you.

Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-8255